Today was the icing on the cake of "why mes?"
Let me start out with the cake and then I will get to the icing.
Why did I lose my first baby and a fallopian tube?
Why did I have to bleed in the first trimester of pregnancy and have to get shots of progesterone and progesterone suppositories?
Why did I get PUPPPs when only 1% of pregnant women get it?
Why do I have a sacralization in my spine that made my labor and birth so difficult?
Why did I get a third degree tear?
Why was my baby born with a two vessel cord?
Why did I get a hematoma on my perineum that I am just now getting over 10 and a half weeks later?
And the ICING....
Why, when I am exclusively breastfeeding on demand, do I have my period already!!!!???? One month after he was born I started (something), then 28 days later...again. Today was my very first pap smear. Sorry if this is TMI....but I actually took a look at my cervix and low and behold...there was fertile cervical fluid. Thank goodness I am very familiar with natural family planning because if not, I just might have wound up with another baby next year. The thought totally freaks me out.
So there you have it.
What is a girl to do?
Apparently I need to know a lot of things to become the person I am supposed to be. I guess God knew that I could handle all this stuff and that those who are going through it just might find their way to me. I am not an expert by any means, but I am a mom who has gone through a lot of things just so I can see this cute little face every day.
2 weeks ago